Insomnia

I used to be a person that went to sleep, slept all night, then woke up in the morning. Until a few years ago. I didn’t realize what a blessing that was. These days… or nights, rather, I am up in the middle of the night probably 3-4 times a week. Usually it is not until 4am or so, so I can handle that. That is kind of like a full night of sleep. Kind of. Well, tonight I woke up as I often do. I laid there trying to be really, really still for probably an hour. Trying to trick myself into thinking that I was still asleep – that there was nothing worth thinking about or getting up to do. Finally I looked at my watch in my foggy state and thought that it said 5:05am. Yea! I had made it to morning! Then, I looked at it again and realized that it was 1:25am! Much too early to “call it a night”. So I laid there and gave myself a good “talkin’ to”. “You MUST go back to sleep!” Well, here I am – an hour later. Awake as can be. Trying to wear myself, or at least my active little mind, out on this computer. My middle-of-the-night-friend.

There is nothing that I can pinpoint that wakes me up or keeps me up. Usually I am not worried about anything. I am not thinking about anything in particular – only the fact that morning – along with 3 kids and all of my responsibilities - is coming, so I must go to sleep. I have tried everything, but I cannot make this insanity end. So, if you think about it, pray for me… I’m not kidding. I am a tired mommy.

Sweet Dreams.